i keep a gun on the book you gave me

you know what they do to guys like us in prison

2004-06-09T16:15:59Z

in the middle of a gunfight
in the center of a restaurant
they say
come with your arms raised high
well they're never gonna get me
like a bullets through a flock of doves
to wage this war against your faith
in me-
your life
will never be the same
on your mother's eyes say a prayer. say a prayer, now.
but i cant

and i dont know how we're just two men as god mad made us.
well i cant....well i can.
too much too late
or just nothing enough of this pain
in my heart for your dying wish
i'll kiss your lips again

they all cheat at cards and the checkers are lost
my cellmate's a killer
they make me do push ups in drag

but nobody cares if your losing myself, am i losing myself? and well
i miss my mom!
will they give me the chair?
or lethal injectyion or swing from a rope if you dare
oh nobody knows all the trouble i seen

life is but a dream for the dead
and well i cant go down by myself
but i'll go down with my friends
take it like a man

i never told you what i do for a living

2004-06-09T16:11:40Z

stay out of the light
or the photograph that i gave you
you can say a prayer if you need to
or just get in line and i'll grieve you.
can i see you? alone.
another night and i'll see you.
another night and i'll be you
some other way to continue
to hide my face

another knife in my hands
a stain that never comes off the sheets
clean me off
im so dirty, babe
the kind of dirty where the water neer cleans off the clothes
i keep a book of the names and those

only go so far 'til you bury them.
so far down we go
touched by angels though
i fall out of grace. i did it so maybe id live this every day
down we go

well never again and never again.
they gave us to shots to the back of the head
well never again
and never again
they gave us to shots to the back of the head
and
we're
all
dead
now

to the end

2004-06-09T16:06:32Z

he calls the mansion not a house but a tomb.
he's always choking from the stench and the fume
the wedding party all collapsed in the room.
so send my resignation to the bride and the groom
let's go down!
this elevator only goes up to ten
he's not around he's always looking at men
down by the pool he doesnt have many friends
as they are. face down and bloadted. snap a shot with the lens!

if you marry me. will you bury me?
will you carry me down to the end?
so say goodbye to the vows you take.
and say goodbye to the life you make.
and say goodbye to the heart you break
and all the cyanide you drank

she keeps a picture of the body she lends.
got nasty blisters from the money she spends.
she got a life of her own it it shows
by the benz she drives at 90 past the barbies and kens

if you ever say never to late
i'll forget all the diamonds you ate
lost in a coma and covered in cake
increase the medication
share the vows at the wake.

so say goodbye to the last parade
and walk away as the parties fade. say goodnight to the heart you break
and all the cyanide you drank
to the end.

deadcitizen @ 2004-06-07T08:19:00

2004-06-07T16:20:48Z

my chemical romance new album is tomorrow!!! and i gots a bright eyes cd. and im happy. schools almost over. sadly, im in love with andres, but he's going to highschool! oh, well. but yeah, im still happy for some reason

deadcitizen @ 2004-06-04T08:15:00

2004-06-04T16:19:20Z

im so bored.

we're all laughing at cameron because his dad beat him up for drinking his snapple....a snapple!! he's all gonna make a song about it now. he was singing "i dont know when it started, i dont know when it'll end. all i know is i'll never drink dad's snapple ever again!"

deadcitizen @ 2004-06-03T08:04:00

2004-06-03T16:06:55Z

yeh, alright, i am back.

im gonna trade in my old ps2 for 70 bucks and get a bright eyes and the new my chemical romance cd!! whoo. 5 damn days.

this weekend cameron and pooja and i are gonna go to the movies the whole day, which we havent done in so so long.

i still like william...but he's too shy to go out with me :-(

deadcitizen @ 2004-05-25T07:58:00

2004-05-25T16:00:36Z

packing my bags and leaving...to these better journals :D
old
the good/current one

deadcitizen @ 2004-04-20T08:04:00

2004-04-20T16:10:13Z

i'll update...later...tonight...at home...

deadcitizen @ 2004-03-29T09:00:00

2004-03-29T17:03:29Z

Rob died on saturday. R.I.P. only 18 years old.

deadcitizen @ 2004-03-18T08:54:00

2004-03-18T16:55:20Z

the living end was on imx last night. kickass. lunch detentionn wasnt too bad..

yesterday was the band photo shoot. angie is our official photographer. we went around the school hallways taking pics. we took one by the waterfountain and on the floor and stuff. it was fun. i like photo shoots. i'll post our official site as soon as i get the photos developed and posted. =)

listen to ex-drummer of sugarcult's new side project: The Postions NYC they kick ass. whole retro new-wave thing goin on here.

deadcitizen @ 2004-03-16T08:58:00

2004-03-16T17:00:36Z

so much for that refreshed feeling. i got fucking lunch detention, MOTHER FUCKER!! son of a bitch cracker damn.

deadcitizen @ 2004-03-15T09:11:00

2004-03-15T17:13:49Z

im sorta in a better mood today. i got a nirvana cd and a my chemical romance cd. its funny cuz on the MCR cd it says unauthorized duplication is a violation of applicable laws and will result in gerard coming to your house and sucking your blood

i just finished doing a PE run., and for some reason i feel refreshed and happier. blah.

period 2

2004-03-08T17:18:11Z

so im at school right now. im bored. and there wasnt any band practice yesterday so im upset about that. but that's alright. ive gotta upload my new icon of tim and marko's floods, heh. i think cameron is mad at me. i have to talk to him next period. if he's mad im gonna be really sad.

on the happier side: the new living end album kicks ass. i lahve the room and hold up and one said to the other. chris cheney is my hero....besides marko 72. marko 72 is my idol. ok. bell rang. im out of here now.

deadcitizen @ 2004-03-04T22:31:00

2004-03-05T03:28:06Z

I'll bet you expected this answer. You already knew
you were a DARK ANGELIC, didn't you? You
are similar to a demon but slightly different
in that you don't revel in evil...you revel in
pleasure. Your wings resemble an angel's but if
that's so then you are a Fallen Angel - your
love of sin caused you to be cast from the
Heavens. They are black as raven wings and are
nearly as dark as your desires. You are
faithless and love it - you believe there is no
Judgement Day to fear and so you can do what
you want! You have a refined concept of what is
sexy and a slightly chaotic sense of 'fun.' In
fact, you love chaos and view much of what you
do as a game. You are typically attracted to
those that will challenge your mind, power, and
wit...and are 'dangerous' people like you. It's
not unlikely that you are bisexual or at least
open to the concept, because you seek
excitement and passion everywhere and in
everyone. Chances are you have a special talent
for magick - you're a powerful being and you
know what you want. Like a Serpent of Eden you
like to try your powers of seduction and
manipulation, though your intent is rarely to
cause harm. You have a deep, dark sense of art
and/or poetry, because your mind is a deep,
dark place. While typically smirking, amused,
and sarcastic, you are capable of severe
revenge and a passion and intensity unrivaled
by any other. In your eyes life is for
enjoyment and pleasure - nothing else. If
you're not having fun in your own twisted way,
you're not happy. You are easily bored with the
vast majority of people. You are most likely
drawn towards the Gothic subculture and
probably adore Goth music, art, and style. Many
people look down on your seemingly careless
lifestyle and may even consider you 'slutty'.
Not true. You just know you're sexy and you're
damn proud of it. Dark Angels have an outlook
most like Satanists - loving sin and looking to
none but themselves for power. Congratulations!
You're my kindred spirit. As far as I'm
concerned - you know what life is REALLY about.
Have fun...Muahaha.

*~*~*Claim Your Wings - Pics and Long Answers*~*~*
brought to you by Quizilla

i feel like listening to the von bondies right now..
i'll just smile and nod along.

deadcitizen @ 2004-03-01T09:08:00

2004-03-01T17:11:17Z

i saw the new sugarcult-memory video. it's kickass. i also heard some clips from the new album, kickass. destination anywhere is great, or as tim says, it makes him wanna "get down and boogie, boogie and get down. catch it catch it catch it boogie!" hah. silly boy.

they made us run PE in the rain. fuckers. my hairs messed up now. fuckers! i swear.

deadcitizen @ 2004-02-28T16:32:00

2004-02-28T21:17:43Z

no band practice today..that so blows.

im also going to miss the living end concert.

i feel so different. more mature for some reason.

btw, me=bipolar, that blows too.

deadcitizen @ 2004-02-24T09:03:00

2004-02-24T17:04:57Z

angie came back yesterday.she didnt kill herself and im convinced she wont try to again. we're all gonna see the living end together on march 4th. im so fucking happy.

deadcitizen @ 2004-02-23T09:01:00

2004-02-23T17:03:07Z

angie didnt show up to school today. im scared as fuck.

deadcitizen @ 2004-02-22T23:08:00

2004-02-23T03:54:07Z

i called up angie to confirm whether or not she's gonna see the living end with me. no one answered the phone. shit, now im scared/worried again. please dont be dead...

deadcitizen @ 2004-02-21T23:11:00

2004-02-22T03:56:57Z

bad astronaut_the passenger
wait, planet earthquake. planet heartbreak give me this day
dates pass by through a maze
are you okay? are you awake, are you awake?
pride, yours flies too high. yours is too great yours is to die
I, I'm taking no side I'm going under water
for once alive
wait, falling airplanes, today my worries fade away
in a suspended dream state somehow i knew
erase, everything stops now and now i crash with them
i am a bank deposit. i'm held accomplice to man's will
the faith transcending reason, the passenger is descending
and in an instant time stands still
fade, planet heartbreak
stop thinking

deadcitizen @ 2004-02-20T08:36:00

2004-02-20T16:38:15Z

im at school. she's been gone the whole week and guess what....she was in the hospital because she tried to commit suicide. im so happy she didnt die. =( she's one of my best friends. fuck.im so sad.

hah, speak of the devil

2004-02-20T02:20:38Z

what i thought wouldnt happen anytime soon...happened

i quit Godzooki. Sakara's on her own, Cameron and i started a band with Alex during lunch. we're just like...well..i can play guitar, you can play guitar...alex can play bass. lets start a band!.all we need is a drummer. Me Cam and Alex in No Left Turn. and this came to realization, why the fuck do we call her Alex when her name is Amy. i dont remember how that was started....

die sakara die

deadcitizen @ 2004-02-19T08:53:00

2004-02-19T16:58:31Z

im gonna start a solo project!

deadcitizen @ 2004-02-18T20:15:00

2004-02-19T01:01:00Z

whoo hoo!! my 6th journal. hah, im such an addict. i only joined for the boylove community though!!...alright, enough hyperness.